Struggling with grief

My dear, sweet Grandma passed away and I am struggling to accept that she is really gone. I was prepared for it and knew it would happen any day. I thought it would not be as hard. I was wrong. That phone call hit me like a ton of bricks. So many emotions hit me at once. Grief, sorrow, regret for the time we won't get to spend together, and happiness knowing she is with the love of her life in Heaven.

No matter what, death is hard. I am one of the lucky few who got to say goodbye but it still does not make it easier. My last conversation with her still brings tears to my eyes. I had brought her a frame that had a poem about Grandmothers and the special place they have in our lives. As I was reading the poem to her, she stroked my hair and my cheek. I was visiting her to comfort her, yet somehow she comforted me. We spoke about my childhood and the many overnight stays I had with her. We talked about family and how my boys are growing so fast. She reminded me to cherish every moment with them.

Grandma, we really did have some good times together. You came to my spelling bees and award shows and charmed all of my friends with your accent and great stories. I enjoyed the time we spent gardening together and talking about life in general. You were always there for me.

Now, you are at peace with our Lord and Savior. You are with the love of your life and you are both smiling down on us.

I look at my boys and smile. I am one blessed woman and I want to make memories that will last a lifetime with them. It is okay to be sad and to have my moments but I want to cherish every moment because you never know what tomorrow might bring.

Decorating candy Christmas trees

I have found in the past that decorating gingerbread houses just does not work well with three young boys. I tend to want to help them more than they want me to to help. Thanks to Pinterest, I have discovered a new way for the boys to get into the Christmas spirit and I can sit back and watch. We decorate Christmas trees and it is so simple, I can't believe I never thought of it myself. You take ice cream cones and slather them in green frosting. Now you have a Christmas tree that the children can decorate. My boys had a blast decorating their trees with mini MM's, Reese's pieces, and Skittles. Of course, the majority of that candy was eaten but they turned out super cute.

Welcome

I would like to welcome you all to my blog. Let me tell you a bit about myself. I dedicated my life to Christ at the age of 12 and have tried to live my life for Him ever since. I have been married to my wonderful husband for almost 7 years now. He has been my friend since middle school and we finally got together when we were just out of high school. We have 3 boys, ages 5, 3 and 1. I am a stay-at -home mommy who tries to be as involved with my children as possible and be a fun mom. A few friends recommended I start a blog so here I am. I have very traditional views when it comes to marriage. When it comes to parenting, I closely identify with attachment parenting. I am a baby-wearing, breastfeeding, co-sleeping momma. My boys are such a joy and a blessing. I am hoping to share a little of that joy with all of you.